Invited to the party… but I didn’t know anyone except the lady who invited me, she’s gone As if she was never here in the first or second place, through no fault of my own, I’m a pawn On the board, playin’ the game by the rules against cheaters and liars who lose & then moan As if it matters that you hear the displeasure of losing to you, the jig’s up fronting predawn.
Through the spin of Earth, assimilating the day and the night, it is what songs sing all about Fear and loathing in every invisible atom of your skull, bones & inner soul, the ol’ holy spirit Signify yourself by your irrelevance to the whole shebang, no matter what you do, you s#it Yourself, in your diaper at first until you get badgered into getting clear on sanitary shout-out.
Bad boog-a-loo and slick bumpin’ & jumpin’ all around the drums & horns mix with G-strings Keepin’ the harmony & melody with electronic 88’s & y’all’s’ mama knows the rest, she sings On my knees down below the baby’s high-chair, like the boss of the board, not yet chairman Acting like One in control of every decision to move this way or that, nobody doin’ a can-can.
A dance of steps, to and fro with random side-steps to follow, to get to the final waste of Time Not telling anybody’s story once they’re dead, just look at the corpse & wait for the stop signs Closing the top of the coffin/casket keeping the dead 208 bones contained from predator sins Hear the sounds, see the sights, feel what’s hip from scent & taste of the loaves and fish fins.
Ready on the starting line, set to go and without further ado, it’s on the way to the finishin’ On the race of the Good scents of Evil for survival of the most fit species, prejudiced redskin In the darkness of this living dream, many think they know it all, wise knowledge deepfakes Certainty principles are appearances of the doom & gloom that rattles until the gods shakes.
Substance before the Big Bang was nothing like the sway of the human woman’s hips I feel Makin’ my move to pretend that the species’ hormone has little to control the whole deal Nothing left when everything loses its attention of your conscious mind, a brain-dead loner Your creators & your parents along with enculturation methods will usurp you, The Stoner.
Think about surviving without the Gold earned or inherited from something Itself, squib cakes No forgiveness for the malfeasance of your holy fathers and pure, virgin mothers and sisters Harmony & some working rhythm keeping time with the movement of the waves & high tides Beat kept from A to G, sharp & flat, diminished in major, minor or seventh, felt the beat vibes.
Alright, it’s going to gitter done on the backstroke & last toke, there’s no time to f’n waste Playin’ with fire & sandcastles that won’t last through the next tide, ebb or neap, God’s Face Gas up to begin the journey, it’s a necessary and sufficient condition to X or implode Space Very good or not, it is what it is, it could be worse, you might not ever have been born, ace.
You’ve joined the herd by inheritance from the sex acts of Romeos & Juliettes who live & die History of an unknown origin, rocks, scissors, sharp needles and silver spoons for the blue sky Moving things, animated animals of animation, cartoons of comedy and drama, Word is all up Love, Fear of losing Life, crushed, burnt, drowned or consumed like a BBQ’d swine or dog pup.
Peace & Ends of it have much to do with territory & boundaries for saving your family jewels What I had before I died went right back into the matrix mix, immersed inside cosmic stew Better or worse may not be good but evil is better than the alternative, Nothing but a Void All spirits conclude it’s better to be than not to be, no question, the only answer, I’m android.
by
r j jstephan, i
c.Dimanche, February 2nd MMXXV Anno Domini
444 PMPST
{
Jammed while loopin’ #OneHeartbeat by @SmokeyRobinson in a loop on youTube link
@ https://youtu.be/A39xfn3K_Ps?si=esrXN1EKYLxyGn-z
}
You are now homeless because you’ve spread homelessness, hum bums’ junk, Elvis & y’all All streamin’ bums and junkies rule the uninhabited wealth of the high hill of the fools’ hill Bums invaded the neighborhood of gold & silver hoarders, underground safely down low Real estate agents, owners of the properties in paradise above & beyond the dregs below.
Tricks with or without magic words can cause the effect because of your will to power trip Stark view of the world as we know it can suffice for all you’ll ever know and never skip In the heat of the frozen night, undercovers that mysterious curiosity nobody recalls at all Shot the guns and rifles, to be certain of the uncertainty of bad guys in mean streets’ pall.
Steering clear of the obstacles you could see, hear & smell but couldn’t touch good taste Drinkin’ the alcohol only makes you want to drink more alcohol, a downward spiral mate Our ancestors and descendants were & will be the filthy bums, drunks on the backstreets Pumped the love and hate joy-juice into thin skin, down to the 208 bones’ hard rock beats.
Soul begins the scoot on the road, up the middle to the end of the clear lines, finite redux High or low, seen or invisible to the sixth or the other five senses, days of old are pure luck You were conceived either on purpose or in error, in every case roll & sweet leaf, Za ZEN tea Runaways don’t turn into Getaways easily, balls ripped from their backs for social security.
Sensational alpha before the dawn turns into an extinct omega, we had to take it easy, man Understanding & Acceptance of the Truth as it is, are required blind faith, One won, amen Before each of our conceptions, saving your skin and bones wasn’t necessary, now it is, so Dreaming you live and die on Earth is the cosmic psychopathic trail, whistle me, just blow!
My brown-eyed girl animates sleeping, inanimate objects of stone, obliterated a freemason Out in bright sunlight with nothing to hide in a shadow of anything in itself, eyes wide open Punch directly delivered to the two lips & chin, recall an uppercut to the jaw-drop the gums You can’t fool mother nature & better love yo mama, karma isn’t kind to mother’s slums.
Essence of incense in the olfactory region of the form, scratch & sniff for the full effect of It Living free or indentured makes a difference to humans alive on Earth, rich, poor, same chit Oxygen helping to keep us all alive while carbon-O2 we exhale is used for cash, gods’ gold Built to rock, stone & plastic fastened together in forged steel, it’s skyline to be rigmarole.
I have a secret which cannot be bifurcated in anyone’s mouth, you hear nothing at all y’all Conceptual analysis is the tool your father warned you about & you played contrarian ball Law enforced right after the crime is committed to avoid chaos’ lawlessness down under Of the women and the puppy love served up in the way too early teens, SNAFU & FUBAR.
Penniless without pockets anyway, wealthy in a manner of speaking, far, far away, too far Radioactive blood feeding the frenzy for a gold standard & live jerk-offs alive in a bell jar A rat and a mole confronted each other inside of a floating container, it’s hard to swallow No more being nice to the relative species, “No More Mr. Nice Guy!” what I oughta bellow.
Hound dog song clarifies the way it is, the way it goes more often than not, a ghost towner Not alive & not dead but in between a rockin’ hard place & Outerspace’s empty chattaqua Etcetera comin’ in threes like you’ve never seen before, now that I mentioned it, she sees Overhears about what nobody but you will find, creepin’ afoot explains stone ‘hood’s trees.
In search of the miraculous trip only gods get, there are too many now homeless in the hills Where the angels lived on a hill above the creepy fires that sealed the thievery speed bawls No desires for things unrequited nor unrequired by the thing itself in me, underground to fear Pity for the less fortunate who made the beds they sleep in, they don’t like it, God don’t care.
Called them punks because they seemed beyond good & evil, both in & out of stone temples On the corners off the busy streets, using the cross-street to nominate the group of greasers Or the future American religious-political fodder farmed from Wisconsin to Colorado fool gold Shut your mouth oughta do the trick & keep the occult out of sight, certain it can’t be found.
In theoretical jargon, the conclusion deduced before a last gasp for one & all, that’s all folks Splashin’ & screamin’ but it’s what’s happening when there’s a Big Bang & nowhere left to go Past to Future in a snap, hardly a moment spent in the Present, Presence a gift to never give Truth for all Life in all forms is just to be or not to be, Francis Bacon retrograde to Plato alive.
Regardless of your knowledge & recollection of facts of life & death, it’s happening Supreme Wisdom of the ghost within is to remain humming silently like a well-oiled cyber-punk meme Ruthless to defend power within at all costs, a priori premise & a posteriori deduced, it is sent Masticating live birth, day & night ala womb to tomb & so on, it’s out of my hands, get bent!
by r j j stephan, i
c. Dimanche, 1-12-2025 Anno Domini @ 1111 AMPST { Slapped this out the demons’ mouths while showing @TheRollingStones #LivingInAGhostTown on youTube link @ https://youtu.be/fq-NsyKxDiI }
Can I be frank here Frankie & Johnny since you can’t be, y’all are too afoul of stench and stank My God & your gods are at war in the final fiscal battle for all of the gold in the dead lead bank Cope with the next ten minutes & you’ll be good to go, bull’s eye on your heart not in the back Dead air is underneath your wings as it should have been as your head’s been injured by crack.
Motherless and father in heaven, there was only One virgin left to come away with Life on Earth Hear the scream to come into the oxygenated Space below the heavens, luck got the high hand Queens over aces are the full boat you screamed about in Reno, cheated the house’s Black Jacks Moved around until it was later than midnight’s manufactured night moves, I worked on backs.
Massaged until the cash register rang up the price to pay for the feeling of ecstatic “Eye DGAF” Use a calculator to figure out the following equation when “x” & “y” equal subzero holy muck Linguistic certainty of believing with Blind Faith that we’re here & now yet in some dire strait A dream within a Poe dream, night’s mare of being innocent & powerless on a first love date.
Recollect the symphony playing Strauss in your headphones as you picked up the mellow riff His mother named him Richard after his father’s uncle Rich who wandered onto the RR track High to low,in 208 pieces all about being shattered in a NYC minute, if you know, you're a stiff You know that it’s all manufactured scat from a bull, a dog or cool cat, on the 4 corners’ black.
No concrete or blacktop in the dust, glass and wood build the scat that One’s fire will toast Burnt to a crisp, all dried up every atom of H2O & we’ve turned into Mars’ dead-dust roast Neither astrophysicists nor philosophers posit a trick to being able to accept Truth well-said Knowing it all & knowing nothing about everything there is, matter & energy in a box, dead.
This ain’t your fault so never to worry your little head’s mind about it, just forget I said it You’re all woke-up with the attention to picayune items like what you’ll do if sharks chit Or if Dick & Jane like you or not, as if that matters in the finale, one final gasp of O2 gas Nobody takes anything with them, rich, poor, young, old, unborn abortive, atone nice _ss.
Apes walk, talk, collectively consume & annihilate the thing itself, birth to death’s fiasco Hey man, give up some love and loneliness for the Void, you’ll know someday, just blow Whistle like your papa to come home for supper, you know your seat at the dinner table Someone told you it was time, you forgot all about Time history, early or once too late.
Fear and loathing inside of the rooms of every mansion & hovel in a cave, lost & found it Watered down to the basic element, it’s all Gold & Silver spoons of the eternal dreamer Asleep upon the altar of the sacrifice in the form of a lamb or human virgin, a final offer To be or not to be, blind faith in something or other when you can’t figure out jack chit.
You played my instrument & I sang a song with words used, a rhythm & rhyme to go blind Drums, strings & blown tubular bells that have no ring, it’s just a Void to avoid in the mind Hello I say to Hades called Hell, what’s taken you so long to come around, no spark to blow Sorry for the sorrow, you win some & you know when you’ve lost it all, ain’t no late show.
Bums and junkies flow from the tops of the hills to the dregs at the bottom of the Earth core Lava hot rocks roll from mountain tops to the salted sea, some just a deep sound of the bore Like your mother dropped you on the floor when she didn’t even know you were inside her Between her legs came the new life, just like the old life, a reincarnated being, a drunk driver.
Neverland passed into forgotten territory, with or without you, I’m here for the party of One Multiply your division’s quotient by zero and that’s precisely what you’ll get, that ain’t no fun Therefore, follow the premises to the inevitable showdown, indubitable conclusion deduced God’s nobody man, it’s like this & like that y'all, a Strauss’ symphony 2 in F minor, “Bruce!”
Stow away rolled stones you’ll need when you’re emptied of all the power of the sticks n’ stone You may be good, bad or ugly and you may be all of the above from time to time, we’re alone Astronauts & cosmonauts felt the pulse outside of this planet, it’s a long way to the tip’s top Hot to trot just the way things are when a species needs extinction, cannot get boys to stop.
Bring your bag lunch & a good book to read, it’ll be a break you’ll never forget about up high Undercover lovers move the unmoved & then abort the innocent glob nobody will ever buy How species’ survive is the mystery, all luck of the draw, shuffle the deck well, take a chance Try to hide, go ahead, naturally I fear the reaper, it’s a natural law, so sweet baby, let’s dance!
Forget what I just wrote, what you all just read, begin again, start over, repeat ad infinitum I’ve already forgotten & I just wrote this a second ago, too tired even to be an old man bum No way to survive for nothing at all, without a goal there’s no place to go, not San Francisco Loved the Tenderloin but Marin dragged my ass down the One, coastal crust the God’s blow.
I rocked it to the hilt and the climax was quick & forgotten in my caffeination infusion trick I like Merlot though, I’m wishin’ upon a star ridin’ on a cable car, almost there & it’s so sick You ain’t here but it’s OK, I got saved & I’m still runnin’ on the emptiness, I’m gonna filler up Sooner than later, ready, get set, Home for the rest of your life, immortally your phuq-up.
On my last flight in the old school, never knew I could fly on my zipper, that’s what I get too No way other than this way, it’s narrow but it will get me to where I’m goin’ for free but blue As it is above so it is below the Nothingness from Tennessee to California, it’s too much glee For the sake of the music, let’s get the colors coordinated, last blink, in synch, corpse is free.
Earth is rare just like the space between your ears, neve forget The Thing they did to US You know who did it, you know I ain’t forgettin’ with hope that I’ll jog your recollection Of men and the mice they trap & kill by fooling them to be getting free cheese from gods Got nothing to show, smoke & mirrors deleted, we’re left with bull’s scat & our hot rods.
by
r j j stephan, i
c. Lundi, Janvier VIth MMXXV Anno Domini @ 666 AMPST
DIG, HERE WE GO, WE CAME TO PLAY TRIP-POINT OF NO RETURN,
AD INFINITUM REPITITION
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Begone from all sights & sounds of silent music, treble & bass to die for in naked cities Talkin Bangor to San Ysidro & every single cesspool of humanity’s fecal matter, please Take this & take that right in the kisser, you can’t see beyond a nosey character’s tease I got out of town with my skin & 208 bones intact, ain’t my fault I fell out of family trees.
Produced in a huff, no immaculate conception but One son of Man, Father’s in heaven With or without the other angels who flew around in the day & nightfall of the sword Dots and dashes on the ship’s bow, sailing for the rest of my watch, never will retire it My watch is on until my final snatch of air out the sky, gas I don’t know will kill my chit!
Hair is short or long, facts of life is hair is all dead cells, a result of the passage of Time Stay bald eagle & nobody knows you’re o’er 12, so shave yo’ face at sundown in a gaol I got a big, full moon over here, high in an imaginary sky, Space & Time’s illusion rhyme Hidden from the uninitiated who would break Ten Commandments & theoretics, I fail.
Harps playin’ for the Captains of ships & the sailors who animate the sea’s DJ lockers Davey Jones knew nothing then & still the same after all the pirates left gold for goons Treasure chests ‘neath crystal clear underwater to island tops of drowned, goof loons Lava is loose, merging a secondary scream for mercy to nobody, all lips just blowers.
Fire out of the sun, ignition of the atmospheric tornados and tidal waves, gods to plead Wind remnants of a spin & wobble of Earth, carrion birds & bees, all too human doom Survive the concoction, unimmaculate conception of a holy egg in mom’s womb tomb Expression on your face is classic, here’s what I know in nutshell, it’s RNA in the seed.
Are you on board or will you wait until it’s far too late to save your soul, father fodder? Don’t mind if you do or not, in a hundred years, nothing’ll matter but you’re the father Absentee meaning nobody ever told you that you originated from thin air, RNA codex To replicate the scars of a Big Bang & the march onto the return to the Singularity sex.
Oneness of One’s multiplicity of the Many is as obvious as a murder of crow’s caw-call Iron the wrinkles from the invisible smoke’s turban, twirls about the brain bucket-ball Listened to the words but forgot everything they said to me, something deep as a hole Doves nor seagulls fly up in there, nothing alive needs a lit darkness, unnecessary con.
Children come to life accidentally on purpose, it’s all in the stars, all of us go very well Kicking & screaming on the way to the corpus dillecti or a passing ship in zonal twilight Go ahead & get behind me, watch my footsteps & follow each one as you would beach Bums affluent in falling asleep, middle of the day or the night, crybabies do all preach.
Guides showing the way they don’t know because everybody must die to know, get it? All the bibles and other languages ideas about after this life’s death know Nothing, sit In meditation & absolutely still for an hour or two, every day or every year you’re alive Systems above & below in synchronization of Big Bang’s slowing expansion, it’s jive.
Pain felt in your brain’s mind, a function of saving the host from disease, harm & death If you disregard the signals thrown into your conscious awareness, take a last breath Y’all won’t know it after you’re all gone but know it now, you’re just cosmic dust dying At Space’s airports or undersea, jets & submarines get to final destinations’ ice frying.
Gravitational force just the suck of the two lips which speak no Evil nor Good, let’s roll Upward or downward dog, either or both ways are the way the river goes to water’s fall Binge & snatch life out of the dead things we kill to eat, for the power of Juice from Joy Barking & bitching at my parents’ graves, deceived to believe in 49 reasons like a boy.
Babies and elders’ bones are not in my future nor yours, you may not have blind faith Can’t see the Truth that has no words & therefore no reality for the hungry old wraith Gods named after dots on a matrix, taken for granted in 400 years, still all’s the same As above so below, things themselves & forms rock the shape of salt water & a dame.
Paid the fees to matriculate in a PhD program which requires dissertation of polemics Want to bad enough, desire it good enough & you’ll certainly connect the dots’ sticks Lucky you read the words in The Word from Genesis to Revelation, then dropped balls To regenerate the species whether in love or lust, irresponsible for the werewolf calls.
Reconnoiter the flatland to secure the life and liberty for yourself & posterity’s men Matter & the form it takes is all there is for us all, even the unborn in a womb of blues Fight like a crazy baby to get here & now, depending on the whim of the girls & women Hot to trot, horses ready to race, lathered up skin, muscles loose to lose, magic ruse.
Pie never was in the sky, it was a jackass’ carol on a stick and fishing line, no piece ate A piece of peace just a dream in the middle of a battle & war of the states of being late On time and eternal after the spin, when it stops, it is indeed, all over, that’s all, caput No light or sound leftover, underground, under dirt, under water, let’s load up & shoot!
Certainty a thing of the Past, nothing for certain in the Present of Future, just figments Imaginary chimera, appears & vanishes as it’s identified, First Cause of heaven scents Blown mind, body eaten & defecated without prejudice, it’s nothing personal, I’m dirt Of a star, billions of parsecs away from Earth’s core, stillborn & raised to be a Big hurt.
Would your parents ever abandon you to the powers that be? Could you survive alone? Answer is clear as a bell, you will fight to survive if you need to kill aggressor’ T-bones Buried deeper than a shovel can dig, in a body bag empty of a thing itself, down under Believed hook, line & sinker that the hook was friendly, I got caught in light & thunder.
No return now, it’s not on the keyboard, ain’t in my repertoire to show the narrow way If you don’t know already, you’ll never know, it’s the way it is, it’s not anyone, far away Where nothing else can be, that’s where it is, it’s actually not It, it’s nothing special Think therefore you exist, there’s no question, I am, You are, we all are, God in a cell.
by
r j j stephan, i
c. Jeudi, 12-26-MMXXIV Anno Domini @ 12 O’CLOCK HIGH NOON