REGRET

You said you'd love me forever

I said the same and then the wind changed

You fell away from my heartless heart

I wasn't the man you hoped to change me to be.

Dangled my participles at the end of the line

Couldn't get my head to screw on right
She loved me, she loved me not

Ballerina, stripper, wife, mother of light.

Fight for you, die for you, until you said stop

It was over, it pretended to die

But it was too strong for death

Neither heroin nor hashish, no regret.

That is not the truth, not even half of it

I want you back, I have deep regret

For leaving and letting you go to hell

Without me to protect you in the battle.

I can't stalk you though, that feels too crass

I'll just think protective thoughts

And spread their invisible wings to carry power

Of impenetrable defense against unstoppable offense.

You may have a random thought of my presence

That will be my only satisfied intention

I'll love you forever, aslong as you breathe

But you won't know it and I'll have no regret.

--R. Stephan